I don’t intend to hurt her…..

She thinks I’m intentionally being mean.
She thinks I don’t know anything.

She has blinders on where he is concerned and she refuses to see the truth in what he is doing.
She believes in him unconditionally and will not for any reason think that he could be lying to her.

I don’t intend to hurt her but I think he is being an ass and using her.
I think he leads her on when he tells her he loves her after they talk on the phone.
If he loved her then why would he insist on it being over?
why does he need it to be over?

Because he is now free to do whatever he wants to do with whom ever he wants to do it with.
But she refuses to see this or believe it.

When I try to talk to her about this she gets mad at me and is hateful.

I told her that we do not want him staying here over Thanksgiving.
She blew up and won’t talk to me.

however this is our home and we will do what we see fit.
And he is not going to stay here, not as long as they are broken up.
She may think we are ruining her chances with him.
But if he wants to be with her, he will tell her and she can be with him, where ever he is going to stay at over the holiday.

Make the world go away…..

the older I get the more I think these thoughts……make the world go away.
Make things simplier and less stressful….

make my family always know how much I love them

and make me realize daily all the blessings in my life.

But some days I just want to be alone and be selfish and just do a day for myself.
Obligated to nothing or no one

I love

I love little baby pups, adorable new born babies, warm summer nights, cool fall days, spending time with my family, sunrises and sunsets and time all by myself.
I love friends who mean the world to me

I love my siblings and all of their insanities.

I love God.
And I love life.

Tinkerbell

Keira is tinkerbell this halloween and she is dressed right now in her outfit.
She looks adorable.
Extremelly so.
so cute in her pretty purple outfit.

I am not a big halloween fan.
I actually think they could do away with the holiday but….I know a lot of people like it.
I’m just not one of them.

the fantastic thing about family

the best thing about family is the oneness I feel when we are all together.
the fantastic thing about family is that we all know eachother so well and can even argue and have fun even though we are arguing.
the great thing about family is we are all out to have the same goal.
That is to be together and enjoy eachother’s company.
That is what it is all about….family

and it is a fantastic thing.

a little bit of love

a little bit of love can go a long way.
A little bit of love can show someone that you care more then you want them to know.
A little bit of love is so wonderful and can take away the blues.
A little bit of love can turn into a whole lot more, but a little bit of love is fun and worth it and anyone should take a chance even if it is just a little bit.

pizza, family time and hanging out

well it is Tuesday night and we are going out for pizza, Paula is coming back for a few days and then we will just hang out  here at home

I imagine that Paula will hang out more with Matt and Crystal but…it will be great to see her, as it always is.

tomorrow is hump day and I’m off Friday so…..two more days until my weekend is here.
That is a good feeling.

money

why is there never enough?
why do I make stupid choices that I know are stupid at the time but still do them?
hindsight what a wonderful thing.

But why is there never enough money?????

In the big scheme of the little things….

well another Monday has come and gone.
Glad it is over with but since my back is aching quite badly, I’m not so sure it was a good day.
But I do have to say I’m glad this Monday is over with.

I worked in Matt’s yard yesterday in with that and working today, has helped make my back quite sore.
My legs go numb occasionally and the pain is constant down my legs.
But enough whining.

I need to find another job….I do know that.
something that doesn’t hurt my back so much, but again…..will that ever happen?
When I need the money so badly.
It is a no win situation.

But everyone is healthy and happy so I guess in the big scheme of things….the back ache is a minor disturbance.

in the big scheme of things…….the most important thing is family and everything else is just a pain in the butt.

Keira Cheyenne

Our  baby was in a wedding yesterday afternoon and she looked so angelic in a creamy white floor length gown that had spaghetti straps.
She wore a little ringlet clip in her hair with a cream colored ribbon that went down her back

she looked like a angel.
And she behaved like one too.
So incredible that it made me cry to see her.
Her cousin Ryan pulled her in a little wagon and it was so adorable to see the two of them like that.

Anyway we have had her nearly all weekend, with the exception of four hours yesterday and we had her all night both Friday night and last night.
We still have her this morning and we took her to Iowa City to get a few groceries.
She is wonderful.

By the way she calls Grandpa  “Poppy!”  it is so cute.