thoughts

as I am sitting here at work waiting for the time to pass so I can go and get breakfast for the kids out of the way…..I am thinking of the past, and the future and what might be ahead of me.

As I have probably mentioned a time or two, there is nothing more important to me then God and my family.
And while I love life and love my family I often think of what the future holds.
What keeps a person committed?
What happens to a persons needs and wants?

I realize we all grow up and change…and what we want and need changes too, but I do wonder about people especially my own children and what the future holds for them when the choices they make will reflect the future as a whole?

I know I can’t  help them with the choices they make or what they do or don’t do with their lives.

still these thoughts go through my head……..

walking on Sunshine

It is Friday!!!
How I love this day.
My favorite day of the week!!
And while most people would think Saturday would be the favorite day, I love Friday’s because when I get up on Friday mornings I think to myself….
“Ahh…..two days to sleep later than 5 am, the next two mornings”

And with it being Friday, I have two days ahead of me that I don’t have to work.
On Saturday morning, there is only one day left after that day!

I know it sounds strange but it makes perfect sense to me.

I feel very blessed and I feel like I am walking on Sunshine just because of all the gifts my dear Heavenly Father has blessed me with.

Thank you Lord

I’m BACK!!!!!

Oh my God!!!
I finally remembered my password and I am back on here!!!!

you have no idea how upset I was when I lost it three months ago.
I am so thrilled to be on here and to see people have still been reading me even though I was unable to get to this site

Thank you Lord for letting me come back!!!!

For those of you who don’t know I also am writing at Maggiemsp.wordpress

so come visit me there too

baby girls

I have had my grand daughters since about nine pm last night.
They both were asleep by nine thirty and slept fitfully.

neither girl can just lay still, they both are all over the bed when they sleep so it makes it hard for me to sleep too.
I love them so very much but it is hard to sleep with them.

No plans for the day.
May go to the city to go out to eat.
nothing is certain yet.

Well happy Sunday one and all.

do you ever want to run away?

I want to run away and I wonder if everyone has moments like these, or in my case days like this when I just don’t want to be responsible for anything.
I just want to run and run and run.

where to I don’t know….

of course my responsibilities, my conscience and money keeps me from doing anything.

I still want to run though…..

and find myself somewhere…….

cheesy

I’m sitting here watching “Father of the Bride 2″ and getting emotional.
Silly really but this movie does it to me every time.
When both George’s wife and daughter are in labor and poor George doesn’t feel like he can handle it.
Cheesy I know but it still brings tears to my eyes every time.

I think it has to do with the fact that I fully believe babies are miracles and that is why it affects me the way it does.

Not to mention George is so real, so human and shows his emotions so well, which for th most part, men can’t do.

Saturday morning

slept nine and a half hours which it felt wonderful to sleep in.

have no plans today other then going to get groceries

Rick is still sleeping he wasn’t home when I went to bed at ten because he was working at the other house.

I will have the youngest two grand daughters over night and then before I know it, it will be Monday morning again.
Weekends fly by

right now I am doing laundry and waiting for my husband to wake up so we can go to the city.

Happy Weekend every one!!!

my new favorite song

YouTube – Keith Urban – Only You Can Love Me This Way (Audio)

some men can be so romantic.
unfortunately for me I am not married to one.

I wanna come back to you

Crystal Gayle was a pretty popular singer in the late seventies early eighties and a song she had keeps popping in to my head today.
Titled “I wanna come back to you”
it goes something like….

“I wanna come back to you, do you wanna come back to me?
Share a love that use to be a mystery?” and then of course I can’t remember any more of it.

but sometimes I think about these words  “I wanna come back to you”
To myself.
To who I really am

do I even know that person?
Would I recognize myself if I looked back at who I once was?

am I in there at all?
???

why do I do what I do what I do?

do you ever wonder about why you do the things you do?
why you make this choice over this choice or go in this direction instead of that direction?
Why do I do the things I do?
Even when I know as I am doing them that I am being an idiot and for crying out loud do I never learn anything?

So why do I do what I do when I do it?
What is the matter with me?
Am I bipolar?
Am I just a few cans short of a six pack?
are the marbles running loose in my head?
why do I do what I do?
I have no freaking idea, but I do wonder about myself at times……