internet problems

my Internet or something is acting up.
not sure what it is.
I tried to write my sister and I would type something and it took over a minute for it to all appear on the screen.
Quite frustrating.

I am watching a movie called “Everest”

and anyone who knows me knows I have a fascination for this mountain.

It just began so I can’t say if it will be good or not.
it is suppose to be based on a true story so ….hopefully it will be good.

Happy Friday!

almost Friday

what a day and what a night.
Work was boring and I was looking for things to do which made it more boring.
Came home and decided to go through the bills and sort them by dates.
Took me almost three hours to do that.
And then I decided to balance my check book.
needless to say I don’t have it done.
Worked on it too much and I never did get it done.
Quite frustrating.

But I will try to do it again when I get the bank statement next month.
hopefully it will get easier when I pay closer attention !

back pain

I am suffering horribly with back pain these last few days.
I may have to go to the doctor.

my oldest son Brian is off for work for a week with a pulled muscle in his lower back.
The doctor told him it could be a pinched nerve but they are treating it like a pulled muscle for right now.

and he has to go back in two weeks to have it checked again.

They didn’t do the MRI like I had done when they discovered the pinched nerve  and slipped disc but they still might if it keeps giving him problems

So much fun getting older.

How do you say????

How do you say I don’t want to do this anymore?
how do you tell someone that they are dragging you down?
how do you say, I love you and care about you but you are not good for me?
how do you say to someone I feel like I am being buried alive and I can’t take it anymore?
how do you say to someone you are a anchor around my neck and I am fighting to survive?
How do you hurt someone?

I need a change in my life

I was reading blogs from a year ago and it is odd to me that despite a new grand child I am in the same position I was in last year at this time.
aching back, sick of my job and hating it and feeling like life is the same as it was yesterday and will be tomorrow.

Okay I am in a funk.
That is a given right?
but  I feel like I need a change in my life.

It is the same old thing every single day….boring and uneventful

And as I write this I think to myself “you spoiled brat, you should be thankful for all that you have!”
and I am, but jesh why does life have to be so boring?

I am very grateful for my four children, their significant others and spouses and grand children.
I thank God every day for them.
I am thankful for my health and my ability to work

I am thankful for Rick

But life is just so frigging boring.
one day is exactly like the day before.
And even the weekends just run right into the other.

I need a change.
not sure what that change is yet but I do know I need one……

Bad Boys

This movie is on TV (Encore) and I am watching it for a while.
It is so funny and so good.
Will Smith is incredible as always and Martin Lawrence is pretty good too.
Tea Leona is adorable.

It was made in 1995 and while it isn’t a favorite it is good.
And enjoyable to watch every now and then.

a quiet day

although it was another stinking Monday it turned out to be a good day.
nothing out of the ordinary happened, just work but it wasn’t a god awful day.
Like most Monday’s are.

Ten more days until school starts and I have no idea how I am going to fill up those ten days with work.
I honestly don’t.
There is just not that much left to do.
But I take a book and read on breaks and that helps the time go by too.
Ho hum

what gives?

no one in my family writes faithfully on their blogs anymore except my sister Kathy.
it is so annoying to check their blogs every day or so to find they haven’t written.
PLEASE people.
I am so sick of checking blogs and finding the same thing one of you wrote two weeks or a month ago!!!
OR LONGER!!!

I just have to quit checking them I guess.
That way I am not disappointed.

I want to be here

I so badly wish I could be here
I love this place and I loved the vacation
Utah!

Waking up to Sunday morning

My baby girls stayed the night last night.
Keira was asleep before eight pm due to the fact that she didn’t have a nap yesterday.
She slept all night long only waking up once talking in her sleep and crying a bit.
I patted her leg, told her I was here and she quieted right back down to sleep.

Kayla was asleep by nine and woke up at twelve (midnight) crying out.
I found her pacifier and gave it back to her and patted her butt until she quieted down.
She woke again at three ten, to the same ritual.
She woke up at six crying and wanting fed.
So we have all three been up since six.
Which is alright since I slept till nine yesterday morning (after not going to bed until midnight)
Keira went with grandpa to work (his every weekend ritual of reading meters) and then I will take a bath once they get back home.

The funny thing is, Miss Kayla refuses to crawl forward.
She literally gets up on her hands and feet to move.
She won’t crawl forward.
She will crawl back wards and scoot herself around

she can lay down and get herself sat back up too, and she tries very hard to pull herself to standing up completely although she hasn’t done it for me yet because the couch is too high for her.

She was nine months old yesterday.
Hard to believe….but I bet she is walking by her birthday in November.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love being Nana?