sometimes I wonder if I put it all on myself, or if the struggle is really there and I am just ignoring it?
sometimes I feel like it would be best to try something else

but unfortunately for me, I am not a fan of failing.

I figure if I do my best than that is all I can do right?
But what if that other element doesn’t do it’s best?
there is no giving, just a bunch of taking

and it leaves me feeling drained and empty

it leaves me wondering “isn’t there more than this?”

unfortunately, there are no promises that it would be better going the other route

there are no promises of anything.

I just wish that other element could be more loving and caring…….