I’ve made a few changes, I am trying to do better.
I need to improve greatly

I know all of this.

I am not the woman I want to be.
not by a long shot

the real me, the one inside where no one sees, is slowly fading away

I’ve lost all the luster to continue

there is no hope for that woman anyway.

no one wants her to be who she really is.

I wear a mask, and fake it.

oh don’t get me wrong.

90% of the time I am fine with hiding away the real me.
90% of the time

the other 10% I am sure is the devil trying to play havoc on me anyway.

But sometimes I do wonder……when will I get to be me?

even though I already know that answer………